Thursday, January 24, 2008

The real

I've been copying my old livejournal posts recently because i'm afraid one day it'll crash and I'll lose seven years of writings. It's been really interesting, reading through my past. I started it in 2001. I was seventeen years old. (And look at me now! Still blogging away! Some things never change.)

Admittedly, i'm very embarrassed about some earlier entries. I wrote like a teenager and you have to forgive me for that. All writers were teenagers once. It's interesting to note when I became a better writer and more interesting to note when I started to really enjoy it and put thought/effort into it. (Around 2003/2004 for those interested.)

Reading through my past is like watching an awful movie though. You know what's going to happen in the end and you keep telling the main character to turn back. Stop making such awful decisions. Stop fretting. Open your eyes.

It's nice to see how much i've changed, though. How not just my writing, but my thinking has matured. I like who i've become. Man, i've had some good times.

Reading through the years was somewhat eyeopening, and naturally gave me a new way to look at myself. Was I a hero or villain in the end? Was I doomed for eternal suffering, or does my life have a hopeful ending. I didn't find the answers there, but i'll keep looking. It's like i'm an algebra problem now. The formula is provided and i've substituted most of the letters for numbers within the problem. I’ve started doing the work—I just need to figure out what “x” is.

And who said you don't use math after high school?

2 comments:

-J said...

A while back, I started using this service (while it was still in beta) to backup my blog. http://tinyurl.com/35wkd3

I think it's still free and it automatically backs up your blog every night. In case you want something like that. I think it works with Live Journal too.

There are other ways too. I think I have either written about it or put the informations somewhere.

Lauren said...

I'll have to check it out--thanks for the advice! Dorky enough, with my LJ I just copied and pasted EVERY POST for the five years or so I wrote in it onto a microsoft word document. But, i'll look into it for this blog. I like having back ups. Just in case.